When looking at this, most people would only see a regular straw wrapper tied around two friends fingers as some cheesy way of resembling friendship, but there’s so much more behind the picture than meets the eye. This is one of the many memories my best friend and I have made through out the years of knowing each other.
Our friendship was one that no one had expected, not even to each other. I remember the first time we met in 8th grade at the mall through my friend (his cousin), we really didn’t talk to each other so we parted our ways for a year since we went to different middle school..then we hit high school! Sophomore year we became closer friends, but not enough to the point where we would tell each other our thoughts or whatever, just like those friends that you would have a regular chit chat and so forth. As junior year approached something just hit us and we instantly clicked right away! Guess it was our taste in music that really brought us closer.
Side note: I still remember when you told me you didn’t trust me because of my sketchy ass bf at the time LOL, but you saw through it and figured I was a sweet kiddo.
Anyways, ever since the beginning of junior year he has been working himself to death. Trying to balance his school life with his work life which pains me to see since there’s really nothing I can do to help him. As his best friend all I want to do his ease a bit of burden off his shoulders since he has done nothing but support me in my decisions and is one of the handful of people I can completely be myself around without the fear of being judged. He has a great heart. His mindset is in the right place and even though he’s always busy pushing through life, he still manages to pull a smile on his face despite his struggles. He’s a true inspiration.
Phillip is my best friend that I can pour my entire heart out to and know he will still view me as the same girl. He sees me as myself. I thank him so much for being himself, for being my best friend.
My heart drops every time I think of being parted with someone who has been there for me through my toughest times.Taking me to and from work. Through the times when I felt like I had no one else. Given me long hugs when I’m at the point of break down. Our last minute plans and road trips. The random late night skating nights and videos we take. Letting me borrow his beanie or hoodie when my dumbass gets cold af. Taking me out on late night drives to rant over a cup of White chocolate mocha and eat our heart outs. In so many ways he has lifted me up just by being there for me and showing that he cares. That’s what a true best friend is and I’m so grateful to have met someone like him.
Phillip you don’t know how much you mean to me. You’re truly my best friend and even though we’re going to be a state away from each other next year you’ll always have a spot in my heart and I’m only a call/text away!
I couldn’t survive without him.
To the bitches that unfollow me for this well..screw you guys. I just want to show to the world how amazing my best friend is to me and if that’s such a crime well..sucks because y’all wish you had a best friend like mineee!
freshxmatters said: what do u look for in a guy? just interested in what u would say... :)
Hmm that’s a really good question! I haven’t really thought about that since it hasn’t been something I’ve been too worried about.
I guess if I was interested in a guy
he’s someone that would be able to keep a conversation going, but still know when to shut his mouth and listen. He doesn’t have to make me laugh all the time, I want him to laugh with or even at me!
The complementing and all that lovey dovey shit dies/becomes boring eventually(every now and than is fine though), but what I really want is a guy that can dig into my mind without me feeling insecured about my motives and beliefs.
I’m a flowers over jewelry type of girl, so I don’t expect him to spoil me with everything I want since I’ll just feel super guilty and feel like I need to get him something just as spectacular.
I mean there’s different aspects to a guy that I notice, but what stands out the most to me is if I know a guy wants me as much as I want him and he doesn’t mind a little chase since it’s not easy for me to stay in one spot for too long.
I hope that answers your question! Sorry I had to publicize this! I just don’t want to have to answer it constantly.
Nothing is bothering me..at least I don’t feel like there is.
Anonymous said: i feel like committing suicide, what do i do?
Okay first off, suicide is NOT an option. I may not know you and I don’t know what’s causing you so much pain, but if I could I would be there to just hold you close and let you know the facts . Here’s something that got me through my tough times that you should really consider.
“Suicide is not chosen; it happens when pain exceeds resources for coping with pain.”
Yes, everyone has those thoughts throughout their life. You’re no different from every other person in this messed up world. We all have different paths, different lifestyles, different experiences, and etc. but in the end we all have struggles that we must suffer through due to the fact that it’s just part of life. The amount of suffering varies from person to person, as in it’s only a matter of opinion to what is considered “bearable.” However, being depressed does not have to be an option. You need to change your way of thinking. Even in the darkest room you have the ability to turn on a single light. You can make it through whatever you’re suffering from. I really recommend you watching Precious and Freedom Writers. They’re two movies that really opened my eyes and motivated me to continue pushing through my struggles.
I also recommend talking to someone and/or picking up a hobby. If you occupy your mind you’ll feel a sense of relief. Thus ending your need to suicide because the main reason people have such negative feelings is because they seek relief. If you much rather let your feelings out through words and you feel like you have any one to listen , I’m here with an open mind and ears for you. You don’t need to worry about being judged around me. If you prefer talking instead of typing, feel free to call me on skype or oovoo.
If nothing I said impacted you or changed your way of thinking. Please consider this. It’s your life. Do what you feel is right, but do realize your actions DOES affect the ones around you weather you realize/accept it or not.
and thought to yourself what the hell you’re doing with your life…
LOLOL throw back~ My cousin and I! When we were about 4-5 (She’s in the black ) to now! Yeahh a lot of change huh? We used to be like twins, but yah know…pubertyyy or whatever. XD Omfg she’s going to kill me if she ever sees this post. XD But I love the girl in the red to death. <3I mean I’ll admit when we were younger we used to annoy the hell out of each other, but she’s family that’s her job. She has been there for me ever since I moved to America~ I honestly don’t know what I would do without her. She saw me go through my random phases and I watched her grow up. Damn I feel so old. LOLOL she just called me and I told her I’m writing a post about her and she doesn’t have internet connection so PWHAHAHAHA~ BEOTCH I HEAR YOU FREAKING OUT. I’m honestly not listening to a word she’s saying. ANYWAYS, We got a lot closer this summer and she’s pretty much like my little sister now since I can be as fucking weird as I can be around her and she still loves me.<3 THAT’S TRUE FAMILY LOVE RIGHT THERE. Ok she’s like complaining about shampoo or some shit like that I should really like start paying attention to what she’s saying but I’m too distracted.This chick needs to calm her tits sometimes..gjakdf;ja Ok She’s someone I can’t picture my life without. I’m going to keep this short soooo <3 LOLOL K LOVE YOU KALLY. Imma go now byee. <3
Now you have to power to easily destroy me emotionally and mentally. Ahah, let just hope you’re not like the rest that took advantage.
So today when I was driving home my mom and I got into an argument. It was already dark enough for me to have my headlights on. When I got to a stoplight I was going to make a right turn and the light hit red right as I got to it. The roads were narrow and cars was coming from both directions, but something inside of me just pushed me to go forward. I don’t know if it was just the anger that has been bottled up lately, or just an impulse,whatever it was I couldn’t control my actions.I turned the wheel as fast as I could and slammed down on the gas. The headlights of the other car flashed in my eyes nearly blinding me. My mom grabs onto my arm screaming at me to stop. My little brother in the back just scared to death. I barely brushed pass the other car without a scratch. I don’t know what came over me. The entire way home all I heard coming from my moms mouth was”You think you’re good now huh?! We could have died because of you. How stupid are you?! What were you thinking?!” I don’t blame her for yelling at me. I mean hell I was pissed off myself for almost killing us. It’s just..if my family wasn’t in the car..would I have turn the wheel just enough to stop myself from being in a head to head crash?
So there’s this girl.
Last school year she told me has had a crush on me since 9th grade.She has been my best friend since 8th grade and it took her a lot of guts to tell me that because she was always scared to tell me since she didn’t want to jeopardize our friendship. She never liked any girl before until she met me. I was straight at that time, but when she told me she liked me, my heart skipped a beat like how when a guy tells me he likes me. That was the first time I’ve ever felt that sort of attraction towards a girl. Ever since the day she told me she liked me I’ve felt this sort of bond with her. Like I would do anything for her just to make her smile. We would play footsie during class, take random pictures when the teacher wasn’t looking, and buy each other presents. I mean I help her through her boy problems and still her best friend, but I feel like one day me and her can be more than just best friends.She’s really the only girl I could really see myself with, and she told me the same. I really hope she meant what she said.